Broken Poetry

Theres something called broken poetry,

I thought, I hold the flow of words,

But, The words denied to fall today,

And they denied , God knows why.

They are broken in every form,

subtle and Transformed views,

and worn out, My poetry needs a new soul now,

now i know, its sickness.

A long process it seemed,

or a blocked pipeline,

Like i had the void in my mind,

and an unwanted thought floated.

A Ruth, keened inside me,

All the smiles denied, 

Every thought gave me a hard look,

and all the confidence shattered.

Let me unword my feelings.

all my emotions are expelled, 

and my soul is wandering,

In search of a meaning.

-Silly me

I feel like a failed web app

Yeah, Thats true. I feel like my environment varibles are there, but they are not assigned any values.i am blank, i pointless, dont know why i exist.

And those local variables, i don even know why do i need them.I have so many classes and interfaces, but i don't have a link. Whats the point having a class if i cant instantiate it? and those interfaces, they mean so much to me, but they are in protected  mode. Yeah , the scope, it has ruined my life. 

Coming to XML, i dont understand, why, i need to mention my rules there? i mention the rules , and i should only follow them? why? I know, I know, its the deployment descriptor, but okay, whats the big deal? Hold my context path, tell the server i have so and so things . why don't you just do your work. i know you are important, but dont create problems in my life.

To add to it, the firewall, i know you have problem with my relationship with the browser. Okay , you authenticated the user, handled the sensitive data, and also dealt with mmy sessions, but, only when its damn important to me, you will have problems, You verymuch care for me , and i respect you, but gimme some space, Please!

I am thankful to app server and DB server, you handle me very well but, I know i have some responsibilities towards you.

Now, that i have decided i  am going to Constrain inputs , and  Validate data for type, length, format, and range so that i lead a simple life, and if stress persists i am gonna Reject bad inputs.

My heart skips a beat when i have a exception to handle, dude, i too have a life, please Live and let live. Even when everything seems crappy right now, i will deal with it.

Bring it on , i can deal with some more problems, because now i am into responsive, liquid layout rendering, and be it anything, i am going to be alright. :)

Even me!

Even me!
I feel, I desire, I have dreams,
I cry, I wait, I lie

So what?
Everyone does..

Even me!
I believe in fairy tales, silly me,
I too want to feel like princess, may be,
So what?
Everyone does..

Even me!
I wish to fly high, but i am scared,
I wish to run away some times, coz i feel sinful,
So what?
Everyone does..

Even me!
I wish to dance in rain like crazy,
and i wish to disappear someday,
I know,
Every one does ...

Dear God!

Dear God,
How are you?
I don't know if you are doing good. You must be tired with human insanity. I know, When you look at the world, you must be so ungrateful with our creation, the greed, the hunger, the immaturity  the stupidity with all of this you must be shaken.

Dear God,
Please do something about it. Like, do you have any plan? I am worried. How are we going to deal with the upcoming severity of foolishness. Are you going to take care of increasing greed? Its like a disease , and its spreading widely.

Dear God,
Have you seen the boundaries we humans believe in, and the religion thing?  Aren't you going to do anything about it? The divisions of class, Poverty, inequality, Aren't you going to do something about it? Have you seen those bloody wars? Are they necessary?

Dear God,
i was told, you are always there, and you listen to every prayer, and i am not supposed to worry about the entire world, But, its worrying me. Are you not going to do anything about it?


- Silly me!

Can i?

Can i ask for little more toffees?,
Can i ask for a little more vacation?,
Can i ask for a little more happiness?,
And Can i ask for a little more liberty?

Can i have little more occasions to celebrate,
Can i have a little less reasons to worry,
Can i have little more friendly people to care for,
And Can i  have little less challenges to face.

Can i have a little  sweeter memories?
Can i dream a little  more?
Can i travel a little more?
And can i spend a little more?

Can i Speak a little more?
Can i change the world, how i want it to be?
Can i be a little indecent?
Can i  smile for no reason?

Can i?

Right click, Refresh!

One long year , being away from your besttt friends, Its a curse.
Thats how the idea of pune trip was conceived. When my bestie in same city who asked if m ok with the plan , i immediately replied "YES."

Hadn't planned this n that of the 5 day trip, but, surely we had the rough idea. We all love talking, and talking for long hours. And we are complete foodie! All of us.

After 15hrs of travel by bus, we got down at "Chandani Chowk" stop  in pune. I rem me and my partner in crime "Choy" exchanging weird expressions, and reminding each other "yay, finally we are in pune". Other idiots "vrin" and "Rah" were still on their way to pick us up.

Both the Gujju's (Semi-Gujju's for that matter), arrived in 5 minutes or so , and first thing we could think of was food. The road side "Vada Pav", and some chai.

And it was the initializer to the great vacation. And we did everything any group does!

• McDonald's(Once it used to be our party venue)
• Played Holi Like crazy's.
• Priya's Bday At CadB
• Kachraa Shopping at FC road , Pune.(Only women will understand the fun involved)
• Went Mad-Over-Donuts .(Slrupppp)
• Bowling at Blu-o.(I hated the FB check in)
• Some KFC duplicate restaurant and stolen Chicken ( :D hifi choy and Rah :D)
• F.C Road again because we weren't happy with shopping at first visit.
• Good Luck Cafe
• Endless Talks at Pantaloons, SB Road.
• Continued talks at Vrins flat till 3.(I know we talk so much)
• Visiting a friend, and my old colleague( +Aarya Deshpande , +Pratima vingale  )
• Tulsi baug.(Only women will understand the fun involved)
• Dagdu Shet Ganpati .
• Hidden place ;) (Later i got to know it was your treat Rah)
• OSM, SB Road.
• Ride in the midnight!
• The amanora Mall, Disappointments and 12hrs of spending time roaming around
• LOL Javed Habib hair cuts! :)
• Manchester United Cafe Bar :D (Vrin and Choy , thanks for the treat)
• Crazy Shopping at BB
• And how can i forget my treat at YorkShire(Awesome!!!!)

Loved every moment , every second of those 5 days,

Only thing that pinched me from within was the last good bye,

when we sat in auto and we bid ours bye's, the moment auto drifted, I hated that moment,

I wanted to be their forever, Hamesha Hamesha!

Missed you Megha, Sattu, Maitri, Pranav! Really!!!!!

+Vrinda Davda +Rahesh Kurukkal +Sumedh Sidhaye +priya revalkar @chayanika das

You ppl are superstars!!!!!!

And that's how i got pani-puri-ed.

The time was 4:15 PM,
It was Sunday, and i had spent 75% of my weekend doing the things i was supposed to do.
My hunger tickled me after a  long days weekend chores, and i peeped in to the fridge, to find nothing appealing to eat. I went into kitchen and browsed through the dabbas ,and i could see nothing ready to eat.

Phew! To avoid the feeling of hunger, i switched on TV. Oops , Moomy had left The FOOD FOOD Channel On. I could see the Chef preparing a slurpy Chocolate dessert . That's it, i decided,  there i grabbed vehicle keys and jumped out to go to a Ice cream parlor.

Vroooommmm... Just two lanes down the line , i saw a huge uncle, munching over yummmy pani puris, I stooped by, and gulped down a plate of PP's, and my mood had already swung to next level of excitement.
My target wasn't done yet, Ice cream parlor, some left's and some more right's, and my Phone rang, "Hello, Haan, Ya, ok, Fine fine, Ya sure, Yep, Okkaaayyy, No no no, not at all, fine then, chalo Cya.."..

Call from a friend, do you remember we are supposed to meet? i'l be there on the spot in next 15 mins, Damn , i thought, I had forgotten, 6 Kms Away, in 15 mins, But Bangalore traffic, I hate it. Vrooommm again, and i was der on time. And we Continued with, the girly shopping. On the Background the urge to have ice cream was still existing, i told my friend "Arrey mujhe ice cream khana hai" chal, and she said she was hungry, and she wished to have something, and there we saw a pani puri stall, and before i could say anything, she bumped on to a panipuri stall, and we had one more plate of it.

It was high time, and i wanted to have ice cream at any cost now, Mommy called up to tell that she was back home and she had a surprise for me, i ran back home, only to know she had Home made pani puris for me. Unlimited!

All i can say is Life is a Beautiful Struggle. Some times Life gives you , so much, and something you deserve at the right time!

And thats how i got panipuried. :D

I know , I know,  Silly me!